seba2632
life thug chosen my
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Hi guys.
As of now, I'm asking you one thing. I do not EXPECT you to read this, I do not ASK you to read this, I HOPE you will read this, and try to understand. As you all probaly know, I haven't been very well liked on this forum. I'm here today, to tell my story. Therefore, I hope you shall read it all before providing any thoughts, because this is very personal for me.
I was born in Denmark back in 1998. I was raised in a rather small town, living with my family - a couple siblings and my parents. I was always the funny kid, the guy who had to shoot in the fun sentence whenever we had those family meetings. That's what I did. That's what I do, I suppose. It's sort of become my thing, but I'm not sure that is really what reflects me. I have always felt very different in the inside, than what I actually show on the outside. As said, I grew up in a small town. Went to two schools, and no, I didn't "move" school, it's just a thing here, after 6th grade you go to another school for 7th-9th grade for some odd reason. In the lower classes I was always popular, since I was very good at playing computer, but once grew up the others sort of lost interest in that, but I did not. I kept going with the computer thing, and as many of you probably know, it's not a very "popular" thing to do, in middle/high school. You got it right, all the kids were after me because I was being a nerd. They all started drinking, taking drugs, smoking and all that jizz. But I did not, I did not see any reason to do so. So I didn't. Why? I have no clue. I just didn't feel like it. But I ended in situations where the peer pressure was on me, and I had to do things I did not want to.
I've been in a lot of situations in my life, that I did not want to be in. I've done things that I am not proud of. I have lived in a shadow. I haven't been who I should be. I have been someone else. I should have been me, but I haven't been. And that is going to change. I've decided that from now on, I am going to be a different person. No matter what other people might think of me, it is how it is, and you just gotta roll with it.
So from today I am starting a new chapter of my life. You guys are probably all sitting here now thinking something like: "What does this have to do with me?", "Why should I even care?" or "What is wrong with this guy?". I am sorry for having to post this here. This is something that has been nagging me for a long time, and as I felt my former social environments were influencing me in ways I did not want to go, I have resigned from my former life and went into my new life. I cut all contacts with my school; friends, teachers etc.
All I've got is you guys, and I really do hope you guys wont shoot me down. I know I've been a shithead on this forum for a long time, but I do believe everyone can change. If you come this long reading my thread I want to apologize, because this is an april fools, but don't tell anyone yet. I have been someone that is not who I really am, but that is going to change. You will from now on see a new me. I hope you all can forgive the former me, and respect the new me as a member of this awesome community.
The best of regards,
Yours faithfully Seba2632.
As of now, I'm asking you one thing. I do not EXPECT you to read this, I do not ASK you to read this, I HOPE you will read this, and try to understand. As you all probaly know, I haven't been very well liked on this forum. I'm here today, to tell my story. Therefore, I hope you shall read it all before providing any thoughts, because this is very personal for me.
I was born in Denmark back in 1998. I was raised in a rather small town, living with my family - a couple siblings and my parents. I was always the funny kid, the guy who had to shoot in the fun sentence whenever we had those family meetings. That's what I did. That's what I do, I suppose. It's sort of become my thing, but I'm not sure that is really what reflects me. I have always felt very different in the inside, than what I actually show on the outside. As said, I grew up in a small town. Went to two schools, and no, I didn't "move" school, it's just a thing here, after 6th grade you go to another school for 7th-9th grade for some odd reason. In the lower classes I was always popular, since I was very good at playing computer, but once grew up the others sort of lost interest in that, but I did not. I kept going with the computer thing, and as many of you probably know, it's not a very "popular" thing to do, in middle/high school. You got it right, all the kids were after me because I was being a nerd. They all started drinking, taking drugs, smoking and all that jizz. But I did not, I did not see any reason to do so. So I didn't. Why? I have no clue. I just didn't feel like it. But I ended in situations where the peer pressure was on me, and I had to do things I did not want to.
I've been in a lot of situations in my life, that I did not want to be in. I've done things that I am not proud of. I have lived in a shadow. I haven't been who I should be. I have been someone else. I should have been me, but I haven't been. And that is going to change. I've decided that from now on, I am going to be a different person. No matter what other people might think of me, it is how it is, and you just gotta roll with it.
So from today I am starting a new chapter of my life. You guys are probably all sitting here now thinking something like: "What does this have to do with me?", "Why should I even care?" or "What is wrong with this guy?". I am sorry for having to post this here. This is something that has been nagging me for a long time, and as I felt my former social environments were influencing me in ways I did not want to go, I have resigned from my former life and went into my new life. I cut all contacts with my school; friends, teachers etc.
All I've got is you guys, and I really do hope you guys wont shoot me down. I know I've been a shithead on this forum for a long time, but I do believe everyone can change. If you come this long reading my thread I want to apologize, because this is an april fools, but don't tell anyone yet. I have been someone that is not who I really am, but that is going to change. You will from now on see a new me. I hope you all can forgive the former me, and respect the new me as a member of this awesome community.
The best of regards,
Yours faithfully Seba2632.