You dont have to be afraid to lose your reputation. This game is for fun.I'm just not that good anymore and I haven't played in a long time. I think this was the last time I played seriously without breaks (not counting a short time I came back in like 2014).
It just takes too long to practice again and I don't even have a landline connection right now. I'll probably play some rpg servers for now but not pvp again.
In my opinion I play for PVP, even though i respect people who play for RPG or Non-PVP worlds